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Monday, December 21, 2015

Uneasy feeling

There will be at one time when you cant make up your mind, when you cant make any decision, the whole world seems not okey

Uneasy feeling makes yourself being so emotional and unstable

At one side, you are telling yourself you have to finish it. You have to make a decision.

But another side will ask, what decision i should made? Which one should i choose?

There is a tiny part in yourself says that lets time decide for you. Lets yourself make her own decision by herself.

Whateva i hate the feeling that i have right now. This is not so me. I cant make any decision! I hate this!!!

This uneasy feeling really makes my life so miserable... 

I wish it will ends soon......





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Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Berharap





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Sunday, December 13, 2015

Love madness

I always heard people said love will make u feel hurt
Love will make you blind
Love will turn your life upside down
Love also can make people being crazy lost their mind org melayu ckp buang tebiat...

For me, falling in love is the best feeling ever
Being loved is the best moment ever 
Belong to someone is the best occupation ever...

But..... not all people who are in love will be last together forever thats why people will stat to say love will make you feel hurt, love will make you cry on and on and on and bla bla bla and love also will make you suffered!!! Cinta hang tuh cinta buta mmg cmni lah jdnya!!...

Again, i agree on this but it doesnt stop you to fall in love again... because

You deserve to be loved
You deserve to find your own happiness
You deserve being someone's partner...
Your love is deserve for someone who deserved you..... 

Dont give up my sweetheart. Move and live your life


 Lets us find our back old days when the world is belong to us.....

Love you with all my heart...

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Sunday, November 22, 2015

When it comes.....

My dad diagnosed having a kidney failure last two months. His kidney size is smaller than it supposed to be hence it cannot functioning normal like others..

We all ni anak anak die wife die duk menangis meroyan sedey .. if ppl come and visit my dad ppl will say hes gonna be fine hes okey.. but deep inside i know he is not gonna be okey..

Like before he can eat wateva he wants, but now he cannot who say he is okey..
Like before he can do all his fav activities by like swimming, but now he cant who say he is fine...
Like before he travel with us anytime anywhere but now he cant cos he has her dialisis schedule to attend who say it is normal...

When it comes, we are not ready
When it comes, it hurts us so much
When it comes, we realise we only have him the one as our father...

Whateva is we need to support each other we need to be there for each other.. like now, my mum is really emotionally unstable. Selalo menangis selalo sedey selalo penat but she never tell us. We know how she is but we pretend in front of her we did not realise about it..

Bile one of ur family member sakit, everything will changed. Honestly speaking i tell you guys everything is changed including yourself. You have to change for your family not for yourself.

At this moment, what important for me i want to make sure my parent is happy and enjoy with their life. I will sacrifice everything i have just for them cos now you will realised what is the most important thing in your life...


Nite

 



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Monday, November 16, 2015

That feeling


I dont have a boyfriend
I dont have a husband
I don have a feeling to be called wife
To be called mummy

i know Allah has greater plan for me In sha Allah
But, alhamdulilah i have this little kenit called hannah who closed with me since she still less than 2mths old
Who love me (yer ker? Perasan kot but she always said she sayang akak)
Who always make me smile, happy for being alone...

Anyway adik hannah akk love you.
Thanx for being next to me
Thanx for giving me a chance to have that feeling....

Love you adik

Muahx


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Saturday, October 17, 2015

Amazing YUNA

YUNALIS ZARAI!!!!!

Went for her concert yesterday.
Vvip seat first row lagi. Peminat tegar gitu....
Anyway dont want to comment much. Actually no comment at all. Shes really superb and amazing.

The concert was really fun and the fan incld us had so much fun!!

Anyway, yuna good luck and all the best.

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Thursday, October 15, 2015

Work = Life

Since joined this new team, i m struggled to adapt with new work environment hujung bulan month end closing awl bulan reporting hari hari biasa debit credit... gosh!! I never done this kind of job in my entire life eventho i m accounting student lol...

But, for career dvlpmt kononnya kene lah exposed myself with this kind of work. Org kata to get your hand dirty with accounting works... kenelah biasa dgn benda2 ni..

At the end, its not so bad. Tk lah teruk lah accounting works ni. Maybe i m not doing purely accounting work because part of it i m still doing financial operation. So, tk lah buhsan sgt. But bile month end, rasa nk resign. Bile bergaduh dgn org operation, rasa nk bertumbuk. Bile kene keje during weekend, rasa nk jerit sbb feel unfair. Thats what i feel for the past 6 months and i m still survived! Yahoooo!!!!!

Thats not the thing that i want to share with you. Despite with all works commitment keje more than 8 hours, keje during weekend, we have to ensure we have a real work life balance.

Keje keje jugak.. work commitment kene fulfill and deliver but our own life our needs must be fulfilled as well. Sometimes i felt, this life is so unfair. Mentang mentang i m still single and no marriage commitment doesnt mean i have to work 24/7 doesnt mean i m the one who should be responsible with all works.

Until one day, i realised:
1. You make your own choice either you wanna go back and have your own sweet time with your family or you decide to stay at office to finish your work. Remember! Keje takkan pernah habis. Tp keje mesti di selesaikan.

So, when you choose to stay and do your work in sha Allah automatically you akan rasa ikhlas bekerja. Tk kisahlah u single je u dh kawin ke u workholic ke pe ke.. u dh decide then go for it. Dont blame others if you dont want to go back sharp at 5pm!!! Its all about a choice...

2. Family first. No matter how hard you strive for your work, you only have one mak, one abah, one adik, one kakak, one abang, one son and one doter. If you lost one of them, can anyone replaced them? But if you lost your job? Can you find other job? In sha Allah you can. Percaya lah rezeki Allah..

Masa travel to Perth somewhere in August, i learn one important thing. Work life balance and time with family. Dieorg de loceng pgi masuk keje, tengahari lunch and ptg time to go home. If dieorg negara i can considered maju dr kite bole blik on time what cant we do the same? At the end, balik you akan crk your family. Sit down around one big table to have dinner together. Thats so precious!!!.....

So, balik msia konon nk tiru. Ya Allah... teruknya lagi lambat balik. Yelah sbb pg bercuti byk keje menanti. (Sape suh cuti masa month end hahahaha)

3. Set the mission. Set the target. Means you kene set you keje teruk2 kenapa? Sbb nk kpi bagus? Sbb rasa tanggungjawab? Sbb rasa nk naik cepat? Or sbb ape? Tepuk dada tnya diri sndrik.

By having that, you will know what you should do. Why you should stay late at office? Why you cannot stay late? Etc etc

4. Do your work at the best level you can. Buatlah keje sungguh2. Jangan susahkan org. In sha Allah, org tkkan sushkan kite. So, tklah keje tuh menhntui kite.


I m not saying that i already practised all above. Slowly but surely. I have put a limit what time i have to stay back at office, i started to prioritise my works so dat the not so important work can be continue tomorrow, i started to think about myself and best part i started for not bring back work home....

I m so proud of myself.
I wanna have a normal life.
I wanna enjoy my life with my loved ones.
I wanna succeed in my career...


Enjoy guys~




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Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Fuh! Fuh!

Pergh berhabuknya fuh! Fuh!
Suddenly teringat dekat page blog ni...
How about with new year spirit, we start to 'write' here actively?

Hurm... we'll see how it goes yer?

Night uols

Salam Maal Hijrah.



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