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emo mode is turns on

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start to plan

the result just released out last monday.... i m just stuck with the craziness of my workloads till i forgot to check my result till all my fwen st (internal msging) me asking about the result.....
wah suddenly i become like zombie menggelabah, pucat and sejuk satu bdn.... then I bole salahkan air cond kuat sgt,.... pdhal aku yg menggelabah result dh kuar hehehhehe.....

actually i m not expecting so much because i dh few times fail the paper (same paper okey!!!) so i dh immune tp nk tgk result mstilah tkt kan.... then cmner ptg tuh during dinner time suddenly i remember about the result....still tkt lagi nk tgk n pura2 pinjam my fwen BB nk check email konon hehhehehehhe ntah mcm maner result aku kuar thru email hah rase nk cmpk jer BB tuh (isshhhkkk naya aku kene byr BB org, aku nya tak der ag hikhik) still tkt lagi nk tgk and mmber aku leh ckp muka aku suddenly pucat..... obviously pucat tkt kot!! aku leh ckp ye ker? tk der pe (pura2 tuk kali ke2) at last i think i should see wats the result to know wat shld i do next....

alhmadulilah wlaupun result tdk mmberangsangkan which is one paper pass one paper fail aku ttp bersyukur sbb paper yg pass tuh adalh paper yg aku dh fail TIGA KALI!!!!!!!!!!! diulang TIGA KALI!!! penantian itu satu penyeksaan .. yes I AGREED 200% hehhehehehhehe....

So, since my contract wif current employer nk tmt dh aku plan to finish all my papers within this semester... tp mcm tak bole sbb paper skang pun aku tk pg kelas sgt cmne tuh? then I planned to further my ACCA kat UK maybe ... asked for a deferment from petronas for 6 months or a year. after completed my acca then i come back to serve petronas bole ker? any idea???? ader ker case cm aku nih??? mcm2 la aku nih uhuhuhuh

i wanted to have an experience study oversea... nk gaks rase study kat tmpat omputih.... tp ntahlah too many things to think ... cost, time, contract wif petronas, fixed income, family, boipren (eh ader ker?) etc hehhehehehhe...

so, aku dlm dilema skang tak tau which one shld i do... this is my plan after finish my degree 3 years ago (owwhhh goshh, tuanya aku!!) since dpt offer keje then aku pun bersemangat keje dgn jayanya till skang at 4.59am still doing my works uhuhuhuhuh...

i have a lot of things in my mind i plan to do...

1. study oversea - petronas kasik ker? duetnya mana mau dicrk? tkkan nk pg sowg2? .....
2. smbg balik petronas - tk hbs ag acca nnti gaji cket.... nnti die cmpk jauh2 wah!!! byk nya bnda aku pikir....

should i think about it now or later or no need to think?
or
no need to plan just let it be as it is? (rasanya aku bukan org yg cmtuh uhuhuhuh)
ntahlar buntu .....

i have to think about it now kos if nk balik petronas dh kene report ngan dieorg by april or may....if i wanna further study kene start crk duet, college and so ever....

wahh!!! aku BUNTU!!!!!!
please dear, help me.....

old memory

last weekend the whole pamily pg KL tour actually not KL tour tp putrajaya tour... pg sane nk belaja tgkap gambo with dslr konon2nya last2 kiterog seronok ditangkap gambo @ jdk model la hehehhehehe....abah yg jdk lagi teror tgkap gambo hehhehehehehhe....

btw dats not the main thing i wanna story for this time... is all about my old memory....otw nk balik umah around 12am++ sumer dh lalok kekenyangan mkn kat pelita KLCC tbe2 adik aku yg sorg ntah mcmana leh tercerita plak kisah lame2 mase kecik2 dulu...

ader satu petang tuh, my sista, my fwen (till now i cant remmber who is she) and myself planned to change our route to go home from sekolah agama... we wanted to 'jalan jalan' usha rumah baru (now dipanggil rumah mastika).. konon2 kiteorg nih dh mcm org beso nk tgk rumah nk beli rumah hehhehehhe (mak abah ptt berbangga ngan kiterog sbb kecik2 ag dh berbakat nk jdk property investor ahaks~)

punyalar ralat tgk umah kuar msk satu umah ke satu umah yela mcm org nk beli umah baru (tgk thru the window jer sbb berkunci) ntah mcmana aku leh tak sedar ader longkang dpn gate tuh yg tak bertutup ... hmppp per ag gedebukkk!!!! aku sudah berada di dlm longkang.... yg bgsnya aku tak rasa skt sgt, tak cedera ,pth gg ker pth tulang ker n nasib aku baik dlm longkang tuh tak der air... kalu tak aku rase dh ke loji dh agaknya aku waktu tuh.... aku mmg tk ingt paper sgt psl bnda tuh sbb dh lama dan yg aku ingt aku penah jth longkang.... my sista yg bgs nih ingt bnda tuh wat malu aku jer.....

die ingt lg mase tuh die tak sedar yg aku dh jth dlm longkang nsb baik die pusing n die tgk aku tak de kat belakang die ... die crk2 tgk aku terkapai2 nk kuar dr longkang ngan tudung terbukak pin....Ya Allah sumpah lawak gle ble aku ingt bnda....

mak, abah, adik2 aku gelak tak ingt dunia la.... bukan setakat mlm tuh smpai ke esoknya mak aku still gelak ag smpai tersedak2 ......tuh la gelakkan ag cucu pak sheikh nih hahhahahah (perasan)

sambung balik pd cter tuh.... balik jerk umah my sista yg mmg sista plg baik dlm dunia bole cter kat cikjah.... hah kene la aku tembakan torpedo dr cikjah.... "yg ko lalu jln tuh naper? kang org der culik ko cmner? bla bla bla (tak ingt dh)..."

dulu masa muda2 cikjah garang gle tau... mungkin darah muda memuncak2 tuh yg garang nk mampos...now die dh jdk auntie + mummy plg spoting dlm dunia... love u cikjah!!!

nih pun old memory jugaks nih .... aku dulu masa tadika dihantar pg tadika ar arqam (actually tadika islam) adik2 aku sume pg tadika omputih.... ble aku tnya mak aku nape tak anto kat tadika same mak kata mase tuh tak cukup duit nk anto tadika mahal2 ...sob sob sedeynya aku dgr tp aku tak ksah sbb aku msh lagi jdk org yg berjaya hikhik (bangga laks plak sorry~) so ble msk tadika tuh aku tak la pndai sgt mengeja ker per so ble msk skolah darjah 1 aku cm bengap cket....ngeja pun lembab...

nsb baik la kat umah aku ader cikgu @ cikjah rajin nk ajar aku mengeja mengenal A B C D .... tp azab la belaja ngan die smpai nangis2 la aku uhuhuhuhuh... ye la kene pksa belaja uhuhuhuh tp wateva it is aku tak anggap tuh satu deraan yg sgt teruk sbb kalu cikjah tak wat aku cmtuh.... aku tak jdk mcm nih mcm skang.... again cikjah tahnk you very and always love u!!!

tuh la ble teringt bnda bnda lama nih nk gelak pun der nk nangis pun der .... mcm2 lar.... btw i miss that moment and i hope it will remains as apart of my sweet memories....

lalallalalalla~

missshhhh you...

wah!!! almost a month i didnt update my blog at all... i'm really freaking busy and rushing with my 'first round' peak period. it damn tired, miserable and stressful up to the max. it was my duty and i know i have to do it either i like it or not... tpkan kdg2 aku rasa best pulak keje cmni busy all the time. i know what shld i do now, tomorrow, next and after next.....tk pyh pikir dah pe ptt wat. just follow the rthym sonoknya!!! tp tak sonok la kalu dh keje rush ngan dateline cm $%@#^&* (sory tak sgaja).... balik awl subuh then tdo for a few hours then continue works then the same thing for the next day mmg lar at the end ur mind, ur body cannot digest anything else other than R E S T + S L E E P....dat one dh setel dh account pun almost nk sign and aku pun dh assign for other 'miserable' engagement i ever had.

tp tak nk lar cter psl my second round peak period buat skt hati now i wanna talk about M I S S @ R I N D U hehhehehehhe....

masa busy busy tuh, i still have a time to check my fb (perkara wajib tuh) nak update diri and kwn2 hehhehehhehe....paper tak bace tak per fb tak leh hehhehehhehe... aku dpt kontek balik kwn my skoolmate, my uni mate..... sonok gler!!!! kdg2 ble teringt mase skolah tak lar rapat tp ble connected thru fb nih jd rapat laks....

this things jdk besh bler kiter jumpe balik our collegue yg dh berapa kurun tak jumpe tak kontek....tau tau dh der gf, bf, dh tunang dh kawin dh der anak hehehhehehe so sweet...

windu gle kat mmber2 sumer... i love u all muahhxxx...

for my besh buddy zu, niniey, jaja ~ aku dh slalu jumpe korg tp ble aku bz kowg pun tk tau psl aku and so do I ... sorryy but u r my most bestest and wonderful fwen I ever had... love u all muah muah (manyak manyak)

niney and jaja i lab u

miss u too zu!

for shafienaz ghakasah ~ i miss you so much... looking for you ages ago and luckly u found me in fb hehhehe ' I SEE YOU' mcm cter avatar laks hehhehehe... tk sabor nk tgk ur kids mesti tomey...nnti kiter hangout eh..

fienaz~ windu bangat sama kamu!!

for my dearie fwen lynn rezka~congratulation for ur new baby gal. shes so cute and adorable.... hope you are fine and happy with your family there.... mishhhh you like crazy muah muah.... hope to see u soon hehehhehe teringin sgt nk visit u kat sna tp wait yer lemme saving byk2 dulu baru leh pg sane and have a money to buy toys for ur kids hehhehehehe

lyn + chris = artiqah snow cinta rezka (love + miss you all)

my PAMILY ~ i miss you all... i m really busy and dont have enuf time to spend with you all.. thanx for you support and understanding. you are rock and cool!!! love you much much

i miss all my fwen i knew since my kindegarden, smktm (yana, azhani, haizani, dayah, umi, wani...., tikl (dayah, awin, nonet, tqah, dwi,...), my uni (stylo18 choh, dayah, mysu, farah, bany, ida, yana, iwa, hadrah, adra, echah, wet, kalsum, ira, ina, bos, rehant,...) or till now.... you are such a wonderful fwen and i love you all~

thank you for being my fwens.....

misss you all and i always do!!!!

another round??!!

gosh its near to 2010. another chapter in my life. that means now we are in the month of December. for all of u, this is the time to clear up all your leave, go for vacation and the bestest thing in the world Y E S is coming up dear! (year end sale).

but for me, its totally different. after having my exam i have to start back to work. i have been barred from taking any leave except emergency leave or medical leave. PEAK PERIOD is coming in sob sob :'(

have to work till late of midnight, sleep at office or worst didn't sleep at all. what a life? but i m a little bit okey this year (ye ker? cm lagi worst jer) because this is my last peak period in E****Y****. time flies so fast. it nearly three years i ve been there and i m still alive and loyal to the company (actually terpaksa sbb bonded hikhik)

cant wait till that moment. should i chow before bonus paid or after? if yes, i have to wait another 4 months. lama tuh 4 months uhuhuhuh... another thing to think. but its too early to think. now is the time to think how to manage myself in the last round of peak period in my life( i hope so).

energy level is zero
tahap mengantuk keep increasing
berat bdn pun berlumba- lumba naik
tensen!!!!!

relaxing body not dancing

morning....

since i have a plenty of time to update my blog i've decided to write down something interesting here. previously, i have 3 besstest fwen i ever had. they are very nice, funny, intelligent, pretty ( now more prettier), honest and everything. but since we are having a conflict wif one of them, from 4 we are now become three. actually there is a long long story behind this but to make it simple we lost contact wif each other dats it! full stop.

berbalik pad interesting story i nk cter pg nih is about we are going spa together for a first time. FIRST TIME tau. for me this is not my first time to go spa. i always accompany my mom to go spa during our family vacation. basically i know what's will going happened, what they will do, which part they will touch and etc.

we went to dewi day spa at wangsa link. the venue is reachable just 15 minutes from my house. this is a new spa (sbb tuh kiterog pg tmpat baru cantik lagi ahaks~). memang decoration die sgt cntik, bau die harummmmm, pekerja die foreigner (obviously dr indon hehehhe) tp very friendly. i'm telling niniey wateva i know about spa, sharing with her anything i knew and she wil say owh okey, cmtuh ker, mana lah tau and etc (jgn marah niniey). but after one hour, she asked me one thing and i couldnt answered cause i never go thru that things from my past experience. niniey ckap 'aku ternoda' no no no no nothing happened actually. cume ble kiter pg spa amek massage package sume tempat la die massage hehheheh -_^

some pictures i took in the spa~

tp wateva it is all of us satisfied wif the package and we plan to go there next time to try other package maybe sauna, milk bath, body lulur, body scrub, manicure or pedicure (tgk pada masa and budget jugaks lol). tp tempat tuh mmg best ! thumbs up! if gals out there wanna try this spa use this link to get some information yer!

http://dewidayspa.blogspot.com.

sometime we have to spend a day or at least a few hours for our own body to relax and refresh after a long day doing a heavy work or tense with other things.

love your body love yourself.


da~

dancing without eyes. oh no!

hype,

actually today i've planned to go gym wif my besh buddy niniey in the morning. Kononnya nk loss some weight la dan membuang all 'lemaks2' yg kuternak selama ni. cause i'm having a minor eye surgery yesterday the effect from the surgery i can still feel it when i woke up this morning.

muka ngah tahan skt n pedih T_T

minor surgery nih tak lar teruk or aper sgt just nk buang nanah dlm mata akibat 'ketumbit'. salah satu sbb i nk buang jugaks nanah nih sbb ssh nk pakai eye shadow ader benjolan plak kat kelopak mata belah kanan. as what my sista said 'mata akak ader bonggol' ingt mata aku nih per? jalan raya? uhuhuhuh

doc said my eyes very dirty and i didnt clean up my eyes properly. i think my lenses also contribute some parts to this 'ketumbit.' for those yg pakai contact lenses including myself hehheheh please please please (a billion times) to

1. clean up your lenses properly
2. change it to the new one once it already expired
3. please take out your lenses during nite or asap (your eyes need enuf water and also rest hehhehe). dont sleep with them.
4. go see contact lenses specialist or any doctor once a year (my specialist located at jalan pahang (promote cket hehehhe). please email me or buzz me if you need a detail)

i wanna share wif you guys wif wat hapen to my auntie due to this lenses. from the story i heard, my auntie was admitted to the hospital because her eyes getting bigger and bigger. my auntie didnt take out her lenses and slept with them quite a long time. ur eyes tak cukup rest or i think scientifically ur eyes didnt get enuf oxcigyen. then my auntie kene tahan for further rawatan kot. ntah tak ingat cter dh lama hikhikhik....yp alhamdulilah tak lah sampai kene operate buang mata.

for conclusion please eat a lot of carrots or any vitamins to protect ur eyes and also ur money from buying a pair of glasses or disposable lenses or doing a laser operation.....

my first dance ^_~

hallo...

for a long long time i 'mengumpul' a strength to create my own blog not strength i think it supposedly looking for a free time to sit and do this thing.

i m interested reading some blog sharing wif me 'indirectly' about their life, their hobby, what they are doing, their best, sad, enjoyable experience and etc... i think dats the best way how we can express our feeling to others without telling them directly.

hopefully after this i have a 'new friend' to share wif about anything and everything maybe ahaks~

i m really sory for those who is really expert in english and found out that my english is really bad. frankling speaking i m not good in english but i can try to improve it.

so, hope to see and hear some comment from you guys after this.

thank you (,")